Drugs.

sweet baby Jesus.

Ok. I did acid and x. Weed numerous times. I get drunk almost every weekend. I smoke more than a pack of cigarettes a day, and I drink coffee like water.

Lo and behold I am still living to tell the tale. Atop of that I run for 5 kilometers everyday, visit the gym 4 times a week and train two sports.

And even at that stretch I am not an alcoholic, I am not a frequent drug abuser, nor am I crippled in any way by my own personal habits.

I realize the fact that I'm young counters some of the side effects of my indulgence, but that's how it is. I will not live forever. I will ESPECIALLY not be young forever. But I honestly intend to live it out. Can I live it out without booze, coffee and smokes? Of course I can. Why do I do it then? Because I damn well can. And I know how this all looks like. \"Sure everyone is in titled to be free and do what they want.\" But the thing everyone is leaving out is \"oh, but as long as it is generally acceptable.\"

After trying the LSD and x, I figured that that isn't something I enjoy. So I left it alone. I know what it feels like, and I'm not impressed or overly excited about the effects of it. Did weed too. Also didn't like it. Haven't done it in 3 years. Nor do I have a desire to do so.
And the rest of the stuff. Sure the stuff is poison, but what the hell isn't? The sun's radiation can give you skin cancer for the love of god. Not to mention all the stuff in the food we eat the various drinks we drink, the clothes we wear, the material we make houses of. EVERYTHING IS DAMN POISONOUS. (even I'm a little poisonous right now. I bit myself on the tongue a minute ago and now I feel dizzy.)

But to state the point, I have bigger things to worry about than booze coffee and smokes. Factual matter is, everyone does.

I dont agree with drugs.Weed is a complicated one,it does damage brain sells,but then so does alcohol etc.I used to smoke loads of pot when i was in my teens/early twenties,now although you could say it can be a gateway to harder drugs,we don't have to walk through everygate way,i was a heavy pot smoker and never tried anything else(but then some people are more easily lead or foolish,but i did find that after a while i got too into it and it became more anti social then social,i would stay in and smoke when i should have been out socialising more,that's why i stopped,looking back now i wouldn't advise anyone to smoke it.Now,years later i don't even smoke cigarette's as i have children and want to be around to see their kids,also i don't want to breath smoke over my kids,i used to smoke outside but you carry on breathing out fumes for two hours after each cigarettes.Also,its so good now not being dependent on them and worrying about how much baccy,papers or filters i have left.

:S

well, not that I'm proud for a second of this confession: last Thursday I overdosed......
ON WELL*f'n*BUTRIN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


here's the dumb part: no memory why...best theory I have is i must've forgotten my dosing regimin
(my short term memory is $#!+ since the accident)and popping some more must have knocked me for a loop...

now the worst part: They put me in the mental ward of the hospital because it was obvious to the \"professionals\" i MUST have intended to commit suicide
<even though i never touched the completely full bottles of Xanax OR Vicodin>
so I was stuck there for evaluation: once they realized I wasn't suicidal(just like somebody told them)- they freed me...what a waste of a weekend !



here's my take on it all: I spent 4 MONTHS in hospitals struggling to get better: a fight i still endure today at home... yeah it hurts like H**L just to walk or even sit... but I'LL BE D***NED IF I GIVE UP NOW !!!!

Don't let this get you down, just keep going and you'll get there. I know it's probably crap advice, I've never been a great adviser...but, the hard work you've been putting in to get better will pay off eventually, everyday you will get closer to a full recovery. And I at least, am here to give you encouragement when you're not feeling the best.

What a horrible experience! You've gone through so much lately, that's just adding insult to injury. I do hope you start feeling better really soon.

I have a question. So far, from what I've studied, it's still debated in America and many other countries.
Is Salvia divinorum a drug? Many say it is and many say that, since it has no toxic content, it is not. I'm just curious. I'm about to start growing a lot of it for my spirit journeys and I know people are going to want me to explain it to them. I just need to know if anyone can pull up any proof for either side.